I have been thinking about this for some time now and I am coming to the conclusion that I have 'faith envy'. There are a couple of blogs I have been reading for a while now; Cjane and NieNie. This family have been thru a horrendous time yet their faith and subsequent strength is mind blowing. Stephanie (of NieNie) suffered 80% burns to her body after an airline accident, she wasn't expected to survive yet she is home and caring for her young family. She has constant pain and challenges that would make the toughest man cry, yet with her strong faith and the faith and support of her large family she gets through her days.
But it isn't just about having that belief and someone to pray to etc it is about community too. She has support from her church community, strength in numbers and all that.
I was speaking to someone not long ago who is Mormon. Her husband works as a nurse and said how common it is that people who are seriously ill/injured heal better and faster than those who don't. this is from what he has seen and not a study or anything. I wonder if this is because the patient can relax and leave it up to his/her god, we know the negative affect stress can have on ones body so if stress isn't a factor does this allow the body to heal better?
My biggest question is how does faith happen? Do people who have been raised from birth in a particular faith just blindly go along with it? Wouldn't this be brainwashing? What about the 'born again' who finds faith? Are they more faithful than someone born into it?
I went to a Catholic boarding school for my secondary years. I was part of a youth group called Antioch. We went to church and help prayer meetings and retreats etc After a year or so I had to admit that it wasn't for me. Socially I loved it, loved the friends I made through it and the 'community' but as for the 'god' part, it just didn't happen for me. why did I not have faith?
What is it about faith that means some people do and some don't?
Another friend of mine, who is also Mormon talks of her church community and I envy that community. Mind you I know that I could create my own community should I wish to but sometimes it would be nice to walk into a ready made one.
I don't know where this is coming from, I read over what I have written and I sound like I am wanting a god but it isn't really that, it is more a question of the how and whys of faith. How does it work?